kisah lama.

aku ingat lagi waktu dulu. sekitar tahun 2000. first time aku kenal kau even kita sekolah sebelah-sebelah for the past few years.

dengan kau, aku boleh cakap ape saja.

daripada benda extreme macam music, movie dan skateboard. sampailah soal hati.

masa berlalu aku tak pernah sangka lepas spm kau ckp "ini paper last kan? ape kau janji?"

tapi aku tolak mentah-mentah. sampai buat kau benci gila.

seriously years after that. aku rasa mcm aku hilang kawan, abang.




kali terakhir aku dgr kau ckp 2 tahun lepas.

lepas tu kau hilang.






amit, seriously aku mintak maaf tapi aku tak sanggup hilang kawan mcm kau.
aku tatau nak cari kau kat mana. :'(



*never take people for granted*

nescafe perosak buah pinggang?

selalu sangat baca blog orang, terpukul gak rasa. tak pernah aku post something yang berguna. reader pun lama2 makin chow. haishh.

ada one time orang kecoh2 pasal nescafe 3 in 1. katanya merosakkan buah pinggang, buat cungap-cungap berdebar-debarla sampai takleh solat (haish. tak khusyuk salahkan nescafe pulak lol)

meh nak cerita sikit pasal effect caffeine bagi semua clear. ni bukan effect nescafe 3 in 1 20 peket rm 10.90 tu saja, tapi merangkumi segala jenis mak nenek coffee tak kira la setarbak ke, kopibin je dan dll.

caffeine atau nama lainnya 1,3,7-trimethylxanthine, trimethylxanthine, methyltheobromine, 7-methyltheophylline, theine, mateine, guaranine *hah. amek. nak sebut pun tergeliat lidah* bertindak sebagai central nervous system stimulant yang mana akan menyebabkan kita jadi segar, tak lalok, tak mengantok especially di kala musim exam dan menyebabkan kita lebih alert.

selain daripada itu, caffeine juga adalah sejenis diuretik (diuretics) yang mana akan menyebabkan anda terkencing-kencing kalau terlebih minum caffeine.

sumber-sumber common untuk caffeine adalah: kopi, teh dan coklat yang diperbuat dari coffee bean (bukan jenama kopibin ok)

caffeine juga di percayai digunakan untuk merawat penyakit tidak boleh bernafas (apnoea) di dalam bayi pra matang.

bagaimana caffeine berfungsi?

ini boleh baca sendiri kat wikipedia. sebab kalau aku tulis balik pun, takut korang makin pening :)

side effect of caffeine?



main symptoms of caffeine overdose?


kalau dah agak-agak dah rasa macam-macam kat atas ni, sah-sah la korang dah overdose. kalau musim exam, jangan sampai terlebih minum caffeine sebab nanti korang takkan dapat tidur berkualiti. aku selalu kena macam ni. haha. korang ingat korang berdebar-debar sebab tak abis study la cemas la, sebenarnya korang dah terlebih minum coffee malam tadi.

so you decide. minum biar lah berpada-pada. jangan salahkan sesuatu produk 100%. kalau ada case control study or experimental study report yang official based on nescafe 3 in 1 memang menyebabkan buah pinggang rosak, baru aku boleh terima 100% kenyataan tu. other than that, kita memang tau side effect nya, tak bermakna minum 1 peket sehari, bangun esok pagi buah pinggang korang dah rosak.

so goodluck.

you are what you eat... or drink.

cheers.


sumber: wikipedia

Houseman glut : Who to blame? by Naveen S Pillai

i am sharing one of my colleague's point of view :) spare some time to read it :)

I read with great interest over the recent issue pertaining the glut of houseman in hospitals throughout the country. To make things worse, almost every single Government hospital are now affiliated with medical schools throughout the country, which means the wards in the hospital are not only crowded by housemans, but also with eagerly awaiting medical students who wants to learn procedures. The questions is, how could the students learn when the housemen themselves are deprived with opportunities? It is the students who will soon become the houseman, serving the public. Now, we certainly do not want leave our people getting half-baked treatment. Doctors deal with life, the most precious of it all.

Over the 10 year period i have seen meteoric rise in the number of medical schools in our country.While i agree that the country needs more doctors, that certainly does not equate to mass production.It is sad to say that this was very much a problem that could be fixed,but people were ignorant and medicine is made into business.For centuries, people have viewed the profession of doctors as someone who is noble and caring. I can't guarantee the trend would continue in the upcoming years. Besides needing good grades in the academia, the medical school also develops the professionalism in the student. The first 2 years forms the fundamentals as the student is gradually exposed to wealth of knowledge to prepare for the more challenging clinical years. The next 3 years are most important years as a medical student as they are exposed to clinical settings where they met patient and apply their knowledge to arrive to a diagnosis. There should not be ANY short cut in this. All medical schools employ a similar method. However, what is actually happening is when there a sudden rise of students, we face with various problems such as lack of manpower and facilities, we eventually end up producing doctors who are ill-equipped with the essential skills to treat patients. As a country of mere 28 million in population, we currently have about 30 plus medical schools, one of the highest in the world. When all the institution starts producing their graduates, we are looking into about 4000 to 5000 doctors annually. Mind you, this does not include graduates from Russia, Ukraine, Poland, Czech Republic, and other recognized institution. The total sum many possibly may around 6000. There are more than 200 institution recognized abroad in Malaysia for medical degree. Do we really need so many institution being recognized? What measures are being taken to assess the quality of its graduates?Many of the schools do not even use English as a teaching medium, leaving us a big query pertaining the quality of the its degree.

So, could we blame our politicians for this problem? Everyone wants a moment of fame. In their opinion,by merely increasing the number of doctors, the healthcare industry would undergo a robust change that would translate into better delivery of services and outcome. When we argue, the counterattack would obviously by saying that doctors are wanting to "protect their turf". True enough, we do not want compete among each other. We respect our collegues, and ultimately we want the betterment of the health of our people. Imagine if doctors decide that (I hope not)-to lower the fares and the same time diluting the quality of services. They don't see whole picture, and they will be the ones who will going to New York or our southern neighbour to receive the "best" treatment.Paradoxical? Plus there is establishment of the 1 Malaysia clinic- MAs are already taking some of the jobs of doctors. Numbers are being increased, and now our jobs are going to be deprived? What is the direction that we are heading to?

Government hospitals too should be selective when it comes to choosing the houseman. After all, they do the most work in the hospital. The 2 year period should be maximally utilized. The HODs in each department should constantly keep in track about the underperforming houseman along with their institution. A annual report should be sent to the MMC to assess the standard of the institutions, and it should be made neutral. I was told that some foreign institution uses very simplistic approach even for the final year examination. One collegue even claimed that clinical exposure was very minimal, and only select cases are shown. This is a very wrong approach as we doctors see patients who comes with various types of illness.

It is my sincere hope that everyone involved will look into this matter urgently. We do not want to be labelled as "a mass manufacturer" of doctors by other nations. Worst, we do not want people to pursue medicine as a spectator sport.

masyaAllah.

kalau semua perasan lately in november (through out the whole month) bulan nampak sangat-sangatlah cantik. FULL MOON! auuuuuuuu *sound coming from werewolf -.-

semalam try utk capture full moon tersebut. but since takde camera. i mean adalah camera but not really a camera - camera phone. ok fine sedey bukan.

so nak dijadikan cerita, try la capture *tengah drive ok time ni* yang dapat di capture adalah lampu-lampu jalan dan kereta. -.-" hampeh.

nanti aku upload gambar tu sebab masih ada dalam phone.

mind the language.

i hate the fact that most of the time i forget things easily. i can't remember my own tumblr's password when i was excited to upload some photos i edited. *sucks isn't it?*

don't ask me who borrowed my books, my hard disk, my money - its not like i don't fucking care. it just that i forgot most of the times. and don't even try to ask me to remember your phone numbers, birth dates or even your name, your friend's name, your maiden's name - i can't remember.

am i sort of developing Alzheimer in my 20s? omg. but i think so.

i think 80% of my brain cells were dead. 10% i use for remembering every-odd-things-people-usually-doesn't-give-a-fuck.

10% are supposed for the recent memories which i think i lost it somewhere, or i think might be stolen by an alien or something.

aaah.

i just need some brand new brain cells.

any-einstein's-brain out there who is too kind for brain cells donation?

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euw buruknya blog ni. bersawang. dengan iklan2 spam. haishhh. hidup teramatlah busy. exam. RAYA. exam lagi. RAYA lagi. so nampak tak kebusyan tu? busy sungguh bukan?

btw. dah lebih sebulan afiq pergi mekah untuk tunaikan haji. sekarang ni mak aku kata, dah waktu orang bermalam di mina, lontar jamrah. aku macam tak dapat bayang sangat macam mana keadaan nya *cetek nya ilmu aku :(* but selalu tengok dalam tv and tanya pada papa dan mama.

semua org dalam family aku dah pegi buat umrah. aku? belum ada rezeki lagi. aku tanya mama if boleh tak nak daftar haji. mama kata, boleh. tapi mesti ada muhrim. so sekarang if kakak and abg ipar aku daftar haji, aku plan nak ikut daftar sekali. di panggil atau tidak, tu kan rezeki. doa-doa dapatlah aku jadi tetamu Allah nanti.

hari raya haji tahun ni sama macam raya-raya haji tahun lepas. memandangkan aku budak johor, kami taklah sambut raya haji semeriah mana. setakat makan lodeh pagi, then tengok orang qurban. tu je lah. but still, good to be back home masa raya.

aku rasa aku ada depression. anhedonia sepanjang zaman. haishh. sorry. aku patut delete blog ni -.-

sendiri.

senyap.

sunyi.


butuh.

kangen.



beri aku keping-keping hati kamu. akan aku simpan buat kenangan masa hadapan.

moving on.

im moving on to tumblr beybeh!

CLICK ME

im sorry blogspot. tumblr is soooooo irresistable ;)

kak gina's super freaking awesome wedding ;)

video terbaik dari team manggis!

Salam Aidilfitri

Faith makes all things possible.
Hope makes all things work.
Love makes all things beautiful.
May you have all of the three.
Happy IedulFitri.

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jauh lagi langkah yang perlu di atur.

mampu ke untuk terus berdiri?

aku perlukan kamu.

aku perlukan kekuatan itu.








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doakan untuk university exam gua yang akan start on 28th sept. moga dipermudahkan Allah.

Alhamdulillah.

setiap kali dengar lagu Maher Zain mesti rasa nak nangis. emo? biarlah.

rasa kerdil sangat-sangat kat sisi Allah.

semoga Allah pelihara keimanan, kesihatan, kesejahteraan aku pada tahun-tahun akan datang.

semoga Allah sihatkan ahli keluarga ku supaya aku mampu balas jasa baik diorg.

semoga Allah berikan petunjuk, mudahkan jalan dalam apa pun urusan.

semoga Allah berkati setiap patah perkataan yang aku pelajari, supaya P2S1 nanti berjalan dgn lancar.

Alhamdulillah untuk 25 tahun aku hidup, tak ternilai rahmat yang Allah dah bagi.

Alhamdulillah untuk 25 tahun keluarga aku ada sama-sama untuk kongsi semua rezeki yang Allah limpahkan.

Alhamdulillah untuk 25 tahun setiap rasa sedih, kecewa, marah, gembira, aku mampu kongsikan dengan mereka-mereka yang aku sayang.


Allah kurniakan rasa sedih supaya aku lebih kuat.

Allah kurniakan rasa marah supaya aku lebih sabar.

Allah kurniakan kepayahan supaya aku beringat-ingat.

Allah kurniakan kesenangan supaya aku tidak lupa pada yang papa.

Allah kurniakan aku keluarga, kawan-kawan, dan semuanya. supaya aku tidak hidup sorang-sorang kat muka bumi ni.

Alhamdulillah sepanjang 25 tahun Allah pernah buat aku gagal supaya aku terus berusaha.
Allah buat aku sakit supaya aku terus ingat pada Dia.

Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah untuk semuanya.

Allah, I wanna thank You
I wanna thank you for all the things that you’ve done
You’ve done for me through all my years I’ve been lost
You guided me from all the ways that were wrong
And did you give me hope

hari jadian part II

birthday celebration @pak putra melaka. nan dia tak payah cakap la gebu siut. makan satu kenyang 12 jam. confirm! belum ambik double cheese naan lagi dengan tandoori chicken pergh kurang pahala puasa aku. haha

bila wendy ajak makan luar aku cuma fikir, wendy ajak keluar makan. coz we always hanging out together for movies or anything. so aku tak fikir ape2 pun.

turns out to be malam yang sangat meriah dengan orang-orang. and tambah lagi muji share same birthdate. so kami celebrate sama2 :)

the whole F2 darlings ada. which is kinda rare.

askar-askar gua pun ada. rare jugak. except untuk aktiviti makan-makan yang biasa.

ain pun ada. lagilah rare. haha

thanks for those who came. gua terharu rasa nak menangis T.T

tapi terpaksa blah awal sebab wani punya kereta rosak. so aku sebagai superman upahan kena la tolong -__-"

poyo.

sdey kena nyalakan api sendiri hahaha

we share same birthday!

gadis-gadis
*from left to right: muji, subi, me, siti, sharmila & wendy*

left to right: radzi (separuh), hassan, juen & yunyaw

left to right: zaki, ain, shidan, dan askar-askar: radhi, amad & radzi (separuh lagi)

balik kolej ini yang dorg buat haha nasib baik aku tade :p

botol2 yang pelik2 tu bukan botol arak ye harap maklum. tu sebenarnye minum arab. apa tah nama dia aku pun lupa.

naan kat sini memang terbaek lah!

**semua gambar dari camera wendy :p thanks babe ;)

hari jadian.

orang kata a year older, a year wiser. tak tahu kenapa aku rasa sebaliknya *mungkin sebab aku takde wisdom tooth so aku tak la wise lagi* ok aku tipu yang tu.

sungguh2 aku terima kasih untuk kawan2 yang susah payah belikan kek. even sambutan sedikit awal dari yang sepatutnya. mungkin sebab weekend nanti ramai pulak yang nak balik.

dah lebih 2 minggu kita puasa. satu patah perkataan "salam ramadhan" pun aku takde letak kat blog. ampuuunnnnnn. sebab *ok ni alasan* aku busy :'(

blog pun tak update. sesungguh nya aku turn out to be orang yang makin malas. dan lembab juga. kerana terlebeh makan setiap kali buka puasa T.T patutlah orang kata buka tu berpada-pada. huhu.

sempena bulan mulia ni aku nak korang dengar lagu ni sure korang jatuh cinta punya




entry mcm skema sket. hoho ape2 je lah ;)

lagenda budak setan kembali!

Lagenda Budak Setan the series
Astro Prima
Every Tuesday, 10.30pm (starting 10/8/2010)
Total Episode: 26

Pelakon:
Kamil sebagai Kasyah
Maslina Nasir (Ayu)
Jue Aziz (Emilia)
Melissa Maureen Rizal (Katerina)
Nas T (Azmi)
Arifah Damanhuri (Mak Leha)
Anne Ngasri (Suzana)

Pengarah: Along Kamaruddin
Skrip: Ahadiat Akashah


sinopsis tak payah nak cerita lah sbb korang sure dah tgk LBS the movie yg pada aku sangat hampeh tu kan?

well said. aku rasa series ni better. much better.

kalau ikut episode pertama haritu, 90% dah macam novel. baru puas! walaupun sri mutiara dah jadi king george haha. mungkin buat kat KGV seremban tu kot. lol.

pasal plot - aku suka bila dia cerita pasal zaman nakal dorg. and lady in black muncul balik! haha barula lengkap geng jahat dorg. and fyi lady in black yg letak cicak dlm coke tu bukan kasyah and the geng (macam dalam movie). plot lebih coherent. lebih dapat dipahami.

pasal watak - watak geng2 kasyah yang kononnya anti perempuan tu di cerita satu-satu. especially watak sapi - yang suka main muzik. and kawan2 lain. macam mana dorg kenal and boleh ngam dgn lady in black pun diceritakan dgn baik. watak cikgu mui yg garang nak mampus baling duster ke mei lan tu pun ada. lol.

pelakon - watak kasyah tu oklah fine. amek la kat farid kamil tu. karang kalau amek pelakon baru kang kayu pulak. sbb berat watak kasyah tu. watak suzana pun kena dgn anne. cuma katerina tu lg best kalau fazura yg pegang. kesimpulannya mostly orang lain yang berlakon except farid kamil.

korang tengok jelah cerita ni. sempat lagi abis terawikh nak lari2 untuk duduk depan tv setiap selasa. much better dari movie. sbb ape aku ckp better? sbb dia lebih mcm novel. mungkin sbb movie kan so tak sempat nak cerita everything and tunggang langgang sampai jadi sucks :p


:)

cara membuat selipar

tahniah kepada shibli kerana berjaya menemukan cara terbaik membuat selipar -____-"


sila click ini

bila cinta.

*gambar dicuri dari fb ya*

happy tengok ckin dah kahwin. tak dapat pergi plan tukar last minute :(

bila lah aku pulak nak macam ni

*sigh*

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ini entri bukan desperate.

nuffnang.

kalau korang perasan page aku memang takde nuffnang.

ye. kalau korang perasanlah.

sebenarnye bukan takleh nak set.

tapi aku tak reti. HAHA

aku selalu jenguk blog orang lain.

kadang2 nak click nuffnang dia.

tapi aku tak sure nak click mana satu.

aku click je mana-mana yang ada perkataan nuffnang tu.

jadi...

mintak maaf ye kalau aku silap :P

what medical school has taught me.

1. how to take photo.
-- cam-whoring di dalam bilik OT. menjakun mula-mula masuk first year bila dapat pegang 20 muscle di tapak tangan.

2. how to make a fool of myself.
-- seperti orang bodoh di ward bila di marah lecturer sebab tak study. di jeling nurse sebab dia taktau kolej dah bayar hospital beribu-ribu untuk di jadikan teaching hospital, tapi diorg pikir kita tetap menyemak menambah kan bilingan umat kat dalam ward.

3. be an ultimate collector.
-- mengumpul segala buku-buku yang banyak gila. satu subject 2-3 buku. sampai rak macam nak roboh.

4. menggunakan masa terluang dengan sebaiknya.
-- lepas penat berdiri dalam ketar lutut dalam ward, masa terluang di isi dengan aktiviti tidur. ye. sleep deprivation itu tidak bagus utk complexion muka.

5. how to be a poser aka poyo.
-- mengangkut stethoscope ke ward memang menyusahkan. ke sana ke mari dengan lab coat lebih2 annoying.

6. be confident.
-- confident tu penting especially bila depan patient kau lupa cara nak buat examination. atau depan lecturer kau di suruh buat CNS examination tapi haram kau tak study malam sebelumnya. ye confident itu bagus. *di masa-masa tertentu*

7. menggunakan duit dengan sewajarnya.
-- apabila duit di gunakan untuk memphotostat segala buku-buku yang ada kat library supaya kau nampak lebih rajin sebenarnya kau saja nak tambah koleksi buku yang ada.

8. forge signature.
-- forgery di benarkan di situasi terdesak seperti ketika kau malas gila nak pegi kelas tapi attendance kau dah below 90% (90% attendance is compulsory)

9. 'mencurik masa'
-- aktiviti yang padat mengajar anda menjadi lebih hebat dalam pencurian masa. masa yang dicurik digunakan untuk makan, tidur. dan bergossip.

10. bodoh matematik.
-- bila 5 tahun kau tak pegang kalkulator nak kira 25 kuasa dua pun terkial-kial.


**ini adalah 'the bad side' of medical college. good side ada je tapi malas nak tulis. takkan la aku nak tulis medical school mentransform aku jadi nerd kut? tak cool lah macam tu.

***tiada kaitan dengan siapa-siapa. yang hidup atau sudah mati.

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rasa nak luahkan something.

tapi takut ada yang terasa.

herm.

simpan ajelah dalam hati.

susah nak percaya orang zaman sekarang ni.


aku tau aku tak puas ati.

tapi biarlah dia nak buat apa.



semoga dia sedar ape yang dia buat itu salah.


ye. dan aku juga mungkin salah.